I’ve gained 10 pounds. I weighed myself. Something I never do, but when you attempt to put on pants for the first time in weeks and none of them fit, you probably have a problem. So I went to verify it.  It really should not be a surprise to anyone, especially this one. I could […]

Clean Slate

“Clean slate.” “Let’s start afresh.” Just like the word “again,” this is the stupidest concept I’ve ever heard. Cognitively speaking there is no such thing as a clean slate. Nope. That is not how the brain works. Unlike a whiteboard, you can’t just wipe it clean. It has memories, while they may be faulty, they […]


Empath.  This word intrigues me.  I’ve now read several definitions of the word “empath” that I would rate from semi-scientific to spiritual acid.  Due to the vast variety of opinions on this word, I cannot use it without some formal declaration of its meaning.  In the absence of any accepted reputable source and its relative […]


If I ever become a comedian I have my opening liner. How do you know if you’re clinically depressed? You cry through your ketamine treatment. (Cue drums and laugh soundtrack) Yes. I cried through the whole thing. How is that even possible?! I mean dude, that is depressing.  Even a pain reliever pumping through your veins […]

If you can’t trust yourself, who can you trust?

I’m realizing that the narrative in my head is not quite complete. Nope. That is not even a fair description. It is totally inaccurate. When reading THIS. It was like I was reading someone else’s story. My eyes rapt with this stranger’s tragedy. Turns out depressive people like tragedies. Note: I have NOT watched the Hands […]