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Don’t you for a SECOND feel bad for me. I am totally fine. More than fine. I’m blessed. This PTSD is something that I will take. PTSD has the word POST in it. While, Jacob is still in a fight (as there is no cure), we are past so much and look at him! He is […]

Schools across the nation are struggling and looking for direction. Looking to understand the “how?”  How do we open?  How will we do social distancing with young children? How will Kindergarten students wear masks all day?  How do we enforce these rules?  How do we keep everyone safe? How do we afford this (in every […]

It has come full circle again. The whole thing started with a search of narratives. Narratives that came before me. Hearing other women’s stories with pediatric cancer children to try and understand how they do it. I read their blogs and started my own to give what I had been given. And today I again […]

Body. I’ve never really considered my relationship with my body. Or rather I’ve never really even thought of my body beyond the immediate “ow” after a stubbed toe or the mirror glance where I pinch the fat. That has been my entire relationship with my body. Not a negative one, but one of more indifference. […]

Yes, I’m a hypocrite.  I am an adult wearing a headband.  I succumbed.  I know I made fun of you. I did. And here I am, wearing a headband. It really was just a way to deal with my hair that I can’t muster the energy to put effort into and living at sea is […]

Physics. Let’s talk Physics.  The First Law of Thermodynamics (Conservation) states that energy is always conserved, it cannot be created or destroyed. In essence, energy can be converted from one form into another, but it never disappears.  Energy is important concept in learning about trauma. Physics is at play here. Or at least I think […]

I’m back in research mode. I guess that is where I cope. Trying to learn to solve. Trying to get my body under control. I can’t live like this.  I started with a case study.  There is one right in front of me, Steve Brody. He has experienced the same exact trauma. It’s a data […]

How does one go from a very capable human to a mess? No, Seriously do you know how? And if yes, how do you undo it? I am very capable, I know that in my heart. More capable than most (at least I think). I can problem solve, I drive a boat, I will escape […]

The fourth of July. I had big plans for you. But like everything, life laughed. It had other plans for sure, ones that included a health pandemic.  But this day was important.  Last fourth of July, we were given the gift of Jacob being out of the hospital (it was fleeting only 2 days) and […]

Maybe it’s strategic.  Just enough space to watch from a far, but still close enough to strike. Never more than ten feet away. I can get there in a second.  I am ready to pounce.  I didn’t come up with this theory. I can’t take credit. I’ve heard it now from multiple people close to […]