All your life people have commented how “smart” you are. That you are fast on the uptake. That you are quick to get things. Clearly those people don’t know that you at all. Or maybe they are unaware of your memory, which is lacking…to say the least. Luckily you left yourself notes. Notes to …
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Till Forever Falls apart
Dear Steve, On this 11th anniversary that again we let pass, not because we don’t have something to celebrate, but everyday we are lucky or unlucky to have had a need to acknowledge our commitment to each other. Everyday we have a real action/artifact to know that we are till forever falls apart. As each …
The pact
I made a pact. With God. This is the second time I’ve done such an act. Therefore, while it wasn’t my first foray in negotiations with “the one,” it wasn’t a regular event. Only once before and this pact has remained secure with only one minor hiccup (Steve’s cancer). Otherwise, solid. God came through. Lines …
The beverage aisle
If higher education was an aisle in the grocery store, it would look like this. Colleges in a can. While each can has a unique identifier that attracts people for different reasons, cans they are. They each have The same amount of product, 12fl oz on liquid The same Ingredients The same cost In college …
2 steps forward, 1 step back
Two steps forward One step back That’s the choreography of this dance. Yesterday was a VERY good day. I felt myself for the first time in a long time. I had energy. I was able to function like myself, multi-tasking even! Then today. Woke up with crippling anxiety. My entire body pumping full of adrenaline …
Repeat
Here we are again! History repeating itself. Deja Vu x2 Life on repeat over and over. And you know how I feel about “again” I know I’m not the anomaly. Sure I’m quirky, but this is just a fact. We are all on repeat. The entire earth has been playing this show in repeat. Over …
PTSD
I have seen such pain. Put mine aside, I’m talking about the others. I have lived in a pediatric ward where every day I saw families with children very ill. I saw the clowns that came in each day to make the kids smile. I saw the prayers. I saw the strength of women that …
Dear Lady Gaga,
You are one kick ass strong woman. I really appreciate you. I really do. I am no you, but we do share something in common. We share the same words. I am using your words often. Just for me. Just to validate and explain some things that I couldn’t before. I thank you. And I …
Why do you do this?
Why do you do this? My mother in her kind way asks. Why do you want all these people to know your private business? Why do you do this? My friends prod in a supportive way. We just worry about what others may think. Why do you do this? My work colleagues ask in a …
Breadcrumbs
The mornings are the worst. Truly the worst. I wake up and my body is so tight I fear my ligaments will pop if I stand. In those first moments walking feels like a scary endeavor. Each step full of tension as my arms radiate with tension and my breath feels so shallow. Stairs look …
Nightwing 