Woke up feeling okay. Now normally I would never write this down. This took courage. I am so scared that I’m going to jinx it! Today I did NOT wake up with the morning missies. My legs worked like normal too. I rolled out of bed and stood up without the chronic stiffness/ pain. I …
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Empath
Empath. This word intrigues me. I’ve now read several definitions of the word “empath” that I would rate from semi-scientific to spiritual acid. Due to the vast variety of opinions on this word, I cannot use it without some formal declaration of its meaning. In the absence of any accepted reputable source and its relative …
Morning Missies
The “morning missies” Definition: Morning missies: (n) a description of an ailment in the body that does not develop, but one wakes up with. Symptoms include feelings of dread, tightness in the legs and chest, and sadness, such sadness. Etymology: Modern English, entered the vernacular in June 2021. Use in a sentence: Abby has the …
Failure
If I ever become a comedian I have my opening liner. How do you know if you’re clinically depressed? You cry through your ketamine treatment. (Cue drums and laugh soundtrack) Yes. I cried through the whole thing. How is that even possible?! I mean dude, that is depressing. Even a pain reliever pumping through your veins …
Keeping my promise Jacob
Either my hiding skills have gotten worse or they are better finders as Cycle 3 has one main difference (or at least I think it does…maybe this is another tale of mine), but my children are very aware. It was Benno who found me first crying hysterically as I lay balled up on our patio …
If you can’t trust yourself, who can you trust?
I’m realizing that the narrative in my head is not quite complete. Nope. That is not even a fair description. It is totally inaccurate. When reading THIS. It was like I was reading someone else’s story. My eyes rapt with this stranger’s tragedy. Turns out depressive people like tragedies. Note: I have NOT watched the Hands …
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Cycle 3, updated PTSD research
Holy shit. It has been a while since I read my blog. I am back in it so I can learn from the past PTSD cycles and thank you past self, it’s all very helpful. All the research is right there to reread and all the results of past treatments are there to learn from. …
It’s back, cycle 3
Going on four. Four days. Day one was really dark. Just the understanding that there will be a day two, three, four, five…was enough to put me in tears for hours. I don’t have time for this. I don’t have minutes to spare! Days? Absolutely not. It’s odd that even though I know what it …
I welcome the sit
Note: everyone is healthy!!!! Everyone. Steve got elective surgery for acid reflux. He has more sexy battle wounds. Written: Friday, June 10th I’m back. Back In the room of waiting and I have to tell you oddly home like.The dings. The alarms. The chairs. Sunk right back into them. And I see that they got rid …
Lego Block
The lego block. Pure genius. Even as toys get more complex with remote controls and flashing lights, the lego block remains supreme. Fads come and go, but there is always lego. Its pure simplicity is its brilliance, but also its power. A block with endless possibilities. A unit of wonder. A cell that can be …