I’m rereading. It’s been a while. That I have read me. And I’m going from start to finish. The entire blog. This is a huge time commitment. I’ve put in about 50 hours or so and I’m only at October of 9th, 2019, otherwise known as Day 10 of round 5 in a cancer world …
Author Archives: abbybrody
Normal boy
“I want to be a normal boy.” This was on repeat last night. We knew this time in his life would come. It was a matter of time. Turns out the time is 4 years. Clocking in at 9 years old. Jacob’s relationship with cancer has been so different than yours and mine. And I …
1+1 = infinity
(dumping posts that I found but never finished) May your new year embody the new reality. 2023 is a year of breaking rules. Even writing new equations. 1+1=infinity No I don’t speak blonde. I am taking issue with the “known” fact that 1+1 = 2. Some may want to tattoo it to remember that you …
The sides return
We were brought into room one today. I remember room one. The last time Steve and I sat there we were there for a consultation as our child had just been diagnosed with neuroblastoma. The room has changed along with Steve and me. All a bit more refreshed. I’m showered and in pants that zip, …
Jacob’s “after”
He alludes to before and after too. This is new. I probably should be relieved. Jacob talks about cancer with emotion. That should be “e” word (expected) right? Until recently the word cancer carried zero emotions. “That was when I had cancer,” Jacob would say to a teacher in class when referring to a past …
Grrreat
. I’m feeling Grateful, glee, good Golly Gee I like the letter “G” This tiger said it best. G words are great. It’s crazy how one letter can change your life—just one extra sound. It can turn water into wine. Jacob has Ganglioblastoma Note the G. This is the benign form, the mature version of …
Puzzle
Today I did a puzzle. I bought a puzzle with no regard to my children. No this wasn’t a present/ activity for them. It was for me. Doctor ordered. I’ve learned I like to fix things. I like to solve. I’m a “fixer” at least that’s what my new therapist thinks. I want to fix …
Remember…we did this.
Remember that if you believe anything is possible. Remember that even the darkest days the sun rise. But I write in the now. This feeling. This moment. I want to remember NOW. So I write to record. As it is this moment where I can say with PURE confidence that I have made a dent …
PTSD shock GOOD therapy
I need to document the moment I reached the top of the dark side and was able to look back and see the beauty that was there all along, but I lacked the light to see. Since June is going nowhere, I’m only left with my own documentation. What worked? Why did the sun rise …
June petition
I have one vote, but I think I have to throw in the towel. I know an uphill battle when I see one. While I’m no hiker, I do know a thing or two about hills and mountains and this is one may be insurmountable. But the fact that I started such a petition speaks …