I’m determined never to be “here” again, but I’m still unsure how to do that. I doubt taking June out of the calendar is feasible and prior to cancer, it was a month I loved. So taking down June is not a solution. But the status quo is not either. I do not accept this. …
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Nightwing is celebrating
Nightwing, Today is a day to remember and each one of you should feel proud of your role. Without you, we would not be here today. Three years ago, Steve and I were hearing our options, which were slim. We had gotten Jacob’s diagnosis only 10 days prior and we were still practicing its words. …
I’ve gained 10 pounds. I weighed myself. Something I never do, but when you attempt to put on pants for the first time in weeks and none of them fit, you probably have a problem. So I went to verify it. It really should not be a surprise to anyone, especially this one. I could …
Clean Slate
“Clean slate.” “Let’s start afresh.” Just like the word “again,” this is the stupidest concept I’ve ever heard. Cognitively speaking there is no such thing as a clean slate. Nope. That is not how the brain works. Unlike a whiteboard, you can’t just wipe it clean. It has memories, while they may be faulty, they …
Elyse Myers
I found a unicorn. A giver of light. Thank you tiktok algorithm. I found an empath sister, Elyse Meyers. Dear Elyse, I have such respect for you. I am new to this anxiety disorder world. I did not grow up anxious. If anything the opposite. The first one to jump. The first one to travel …
New Knowns (take 2)
I mean who wrote this (New Knowns)? You do have to give it to her, she has a perspective. I mean this one is my favorite. What a hopeful optimism and a zoomed-out perspective on life. She sees beauty. She sees some sort of meaning in the chaos. I marvel at her. Truly. I get …
Knock on wood
Woke up feeling okay. Now normally I would never write this down. This took courage. I am so scared that I’m going to jinx it! Today I did NOT wake up with the morning missies. My legs worked like normal too. I rolled out of bed and stood up without the chronic stiffness/ pain. I …
Empath
Empath. This word intrigues me. I’ve now read several definitions of the word “empath” that I would rate from semi-scientific to spiritual acid. Due to the vast variety of opinions on this word, I cannot use it without some formal declaration of its meaning. In the absence of any accepted reputable source and its relative …
Morning Missies
The “morning missies” Definition: Morning missies: (n) a description of an ailment in the body that does not develop, but one wakes up with. Symptoms include feelings of dread, tightness in the legs and chest, and sadness, such sadness. Etymology: Modern English, entered the vernacular in June 2021. Use in a sentence: Abby has the …
Failure
If I ever become a comedian I have my opening liner. How do you know if you’re clinically depressed? You cry through your ketamine treatment. (Cue drums and laugh soundtrack) Yes. I cried through the whole thing. How is that even possible?! I mean dude, that is depressing. Even a pain reliever pumping through your veins …
Nightwing 