It’s a time warp.  A time warp to eight months ago.

Everything is the same. Exactly the same.

Did that time machine I wished for come true?

It’s as if it never happened.

Cancer? What cancer? 

We’re just the Brodys adventuring.  I’ve never had that Deja Vu feeling people talk about or least don’t think I have, but this must be it.  I’ve lived this before. I remember this. I know this. I remember it well. I do it well even. I’ve had plenty of practice as this has been the movie looping in my head for months. The ones that pop up on my phone “one year ago this day.” The photos I stare at before bed, but it is live now. Live.

Live is always better.

Live music. Live shows. Better.

Just better.

At one point yesterday someone asked how Jacob was feeling, I had a moment of confusion. I even said, “oh it’s Steve with the cold.” I forgot. How is that humanly possible?! I snapped back quickly, but for a moment there I was confused by this question I’m rightfully asked daily. Maybe it’s the wine. Maybe it’s the sun. But I like it. Pretend is a fun game and it’s easy when everyone plays along. Everyone is playing. But it’s also confusing because the acting is too good. Too good. It feels real.

We have an Oscar nomination in the works for sure. 

LOOK! Either Jacob is the best actor on earth, or we got one HEALTHY kid. He has NOT stopped moving and eating. Sausages of course!  He is averaging six sausages a day. He only plays a healthy normal kid here. And it’s amazing. It’s awe-inspiring. It’s a miracle.

But until the 20th…it’s still pretend. Turns out real doesn’t exist until there is an image that you can SEE.

I want to see this movie. I do.