What have I been reading?

Basically everything you have told me to.

I have never been able to read one book at a time. Some would say that is ADD, but I say that’s how brains work! Our brains like stimulus so I feed it. I usually have about 4 books going on. Some books will take years to finish and some I will abandon as they can’t compete with the others.

I was reading books only about cancer, but not shockingly…someone is outpacing me. He has read all my books and he has lost patience with my ability to talk the science. I’m not quite on his level, but I’m okay with it. I have other things to work on.

All the books and ideas you send me.

And like everything, the perfect booked walked into my life from one of you.

I was sold on this paragraph:

*“But how do you prove something that defies every law that you’ve been taught? What if your entire premise is outside the bounds of what is known or observable? What if you were trying to locate the mathematical equation for a miracle? *

Well hello, Lynne McTaggart, have you been sleeping in my head?! YES. That is exactly what I’ve been trying to do. I’ve been trying to find the mathematical equation for the unplottable, all of the anomalies, both good and bad.

I do believe that even in chaos there is a pattern. I’ve seen glimpses. Just glimpses, but they exist. This I am certain.

For everything, there is a reason. It may be years away but it’s there. However, if you don’t pay attention…I think it will repeat itself. So its on us to learn.

For every problem a solution. That’s just math.

For every disease a cure. Look at all the diseases that HAVE been cured. Why would we assume the rest can’t be cured?

For every reaction, there is an equal and opposite reaction.

SO…

All I need to figure out the equation of cancer/ life/ etc. And if I know the equations I can make sure those variables never meet or always meet depending on the wanted solution.

I can take CONTROL.

I can like the word EXPECTED again, because I will own these expectations.

I can stop being so angry, sad, and every other negative emotion.

So I’m super jazzed about my new book.

And that this search is not walking away from science, but embracing science. Using science to prove unseeable things. People are doing it!

And from what I’m reading all this community stuff that I’ve been documenting is no bull. There is real science here about the power of group intention. WOW! My own data that I’ve been recorded is replicated on a mass scale with control groups. How sexy is that? Control groups. Doesn’t get sexier.

Thank you, friend of Nightwing for the book. Turns out I’m not the only one who is searching. And maybe I’m not crazy. Maybe I’m on to something.

I’m may even be the last one to realize it from the research I’m reading.

But it is never too late to learn.