Strawberry Fields

Strawberry fields. That is Jacob’s favorite song.

 I never knew that before. It turns out I didn’t know a lot before. I should know these things. I never thought before to ask. 

You really get to know someone when you live in 150 square feet 24/7. I ask him everything. I want to know every little nuance of him. And I do. 

I’m a big fan of the Beatles, but this choice is not from me.  I asked him how we knows that song? “The teachers play the Beatles at rest time.” I like all the songs, but Strawberry Fields is my favorite. 

This morning was his scan. “Here we go again!” He chirps and he slaps his head like a good Jewish boy saying “oy!”

In the waiting area for the MRI, I asked him if I could play it. He nodded enthusiastically and this dreamy look came over him. He just listened. I just listened. 

Let me take you down

‘Cause I’m going to Strawberry Fields

Nothing is real

And nothing to get hung about

Strawberry Fields forever

I don’t know who needed that song more. Him or me. I especially like the part “Nothing is real.” We plan to add strawberry picking to our vision board. We’ve got to see these fields! 

It was time. He climbs onto the machine and begins to explain in every detail how this machine is different than NYU’s. The doctors hang on his every word. Stop their prepping. Listen to his feedback. They can’t get over him. He comments on the size of the machine, it’s color, the gown color, the lighting in the room, etc. He remembers every little thing. 

He remembers every little thing. He will remember this.

He gives them 4.5 stars. When asked why not 5 stars? “You made me wear socks. I hate socks!” And then he jumped up and put his head in the tube. He didn’t cry. He didn’t ask any questions and again I was ushered through the double doors. 

I’m having a bad day. I had a hell of a night (another blog…not sure if I will publish. I write a lot I don’t publish). But, I haven’t slept and haven’t stopped crying. 

So I need to thank YOU, Friends of Nightwing for today, because I was at my lowest low last night and this morning. I could hardly walk. And I needed to be at my HIGHEST HIGH for his test.

WE JUST got the scans back and they are FINE.

Cancer has not spread to his brain tissue! 





your prayers must have been so strong that they think Jacob can go home and continue treatment as an outpatient. We will be back and forth, but Jacob can see the sun. He can breathe the air.

He will be able to enjoy the 4th of July. The 4th of July like his daddy is his favorite holiday. He will be at his sickest point in the chemo cycle that day, but we are going to PARTY. PARTY all around him! Jacob has already started making the decorations. We’re ready. 

I can’t wait to look up at the sky with him. I can’t wait to see the sky explode. Burn baby burn.

Nothing is real. And Nothing to get hung about.

Strawberry Fields Forever.

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  1. Hallelujah!!! This is the very best news possible!!! I was going to see if you wanted a walk and wine on Wednesday but I’d much rather have you home and celebrating!! Mazel Mazel!! Nightwing soars! Thank you for sharing this fabulous news! Xo jill

  2. When y’all win this fight, come to Baldwin County, Alabama and pick the finest strawberries you will ever taste. So much love and so many prayers…thankful for the AMAZING news.

  3. Sweetness and strawberry love to all of you. Prayer’s continue. Love, us

  4. i am so happy to hear good news about his scan and his treatment! love to everyone!

  5. So wonderful
    I thought of u all day……
    Enjoy the 4th
    Home is a wonderful place to be !!!!

  6. Amazing news!!! So
    Happy for all of you. We will all keep praying and rooting for Jacob and your family.

  7. Nothing made me happier than reading your blog tonight! I am so psyched! I feel like celebrating right now. Sending lots of love and support! You truly are a superhero! Mom Power!

  8. Following your story and this news just made my day!!! Yay! Praying for only the best of the best news!

  9. Yes!! Wonderful news! Thank you for sharing, and as always, thank you for writing and letting us follow on this journey with you. We are cheering for you and Jacob!

  10. Thank you for updating, I thought of Jacob all day. I even showed Liam nightwing on YouTube. We will continue to pray for Jacob and your family ❤️

  11. Thank god for that news! So glad you will be able to celebrate the 4th not in the hospital. ❤️

  12. Your blogs are beautiful.
    So happy to hear the good news 👏👏👍👍
    Try to get some sleep.

  13. This is the best news ever! I’m thrilled. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 Sending hugs and kisses.

  14. Best song ever. Best news ever. Thank God for this news!!
    Prayers have been answered and will continue to be answered.

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